"Buffy marathon"

I started my own little “Buffy the Vampire Slayer marathon” yesterday. I’m continuing it right now, getting pretty close to ending Season one. I have all day to watch it today, so lets see how far I get. I’ll probably watch it if I’m at Devan’s apartment or his mum’s house, whenever I get the chance. Then, when I’m done, I’ll have an Angel marathon! I still haven’t watched all of Angel yet since I got it.

Yesterday I deleted my myspace because I just need to get myself away from anything that makes me think stressful thoughts. I realized this about a week ago, and I’m glad I finally did it. Now that I don’t have a myspace to go to, I’ll be doing a lot more on here, which is what I should be doing. I’m working on the buffy and angel episode guide, and also I’ll be putting in some cast pages or any other info I can think of. Also, I’ll be doing avatar pages. I just realized how easy it will be because I have all of them on my photobucket account. I recently had to “redo” my computer because of a virus, so I lost everything. Good thing I saved things on photobucket! I’m also thinking of adding more pages to the “about me” section. I’ll add them to the updates when I’m finished.

I’m going to have Devan’s mum help me sell some stuff on Ebay, ‘cuz Devan’s super short on money, so is his mom, so are my parents - and I have $0. So, with the money I make from selling my crap, I can help out a little bit and also have money for myself. I would also love to take Devan out to eat because he’s always buying me food and stuff. I need a job, but I don’t want a job where there’s people involved. I’m too scared!

The last movie I ordered from Netflix was “Not Another Teen Movie,” starring Chyler Leigh, Chris Evans and Jaime Pressly. It’s like a spoof on teen movies like Cruel Intentions, She’s All That, American Beauty, the Breakfast Club, and more. I thought it was hilarious, very random, but still super funny. I watched it when I was at work with Devan on a sunday 10-4 shift. I had a blast watching it because it’s so out there. I also watched Almost Famous, which is also one of the movies shown in NATM. I don’t know why I hadn’t watched it before, it’s such a good movie, and I love Kate Hudson. A lot of people say my mom looks like Goldie Hawn, and I’ve seen pictures of Kate Hudson that look a lot like her, too. My boyfriend thinks I kinda look like Kate Hudson, but we mostly just have similar traits. Another good, new movie I saw lately was “Good Luck Chuck” with Jessica Alba and Dane Cook. That was a super cute movie that I totally recommend to anyone that likes a good chick flick.

I started taking birth control last week, I mentioned it on my physical that I was considering it. We get the cheapies at walmart for $9 a month. Can’t beat that! My periods were so irregular, they were getting wicked annoying. I would sometimes get them every month about 2 times. Every other time I miss it for 3 or 4 months and I never expect it when it comes. I’m glad that now I’m going to be on some sort of schedule, for at least one thing in my life. Everything is so out of order. I don’t go to bed or get up at a certain time anymore, so theres nothing organized in my life right now. I really need that for the kind of person I am and my whole Anxiety disorder. It really gets in the way of everything.

I am starting to get up earlier, before 10:00 (thats when I take my pill), and eating breakfast every day, too. Which reminds me, it’s lunchtime so I should go get me something to eat. I’ll definitely get some updates done today, so check back!

Posted on March 3, 2008 | Money, Movies, Computer, Buffy, Life, Website | 3 comments »

"New and exciting drama"

This month has been full of drama! It really disappoints me because I just hate having to deal with it all the time. About a month ago, Devon moved out without telling me or Devan. We just came home and she was moving her shit out. Basically, things were awkward and she was being a cunt (excuse my language). One day before this happened, I was hanging out with her and her girlfriend and she got called into work, so she was going to give me a ride home. An hour later, we were all downstairs: I was in Devan’s room waiting and she was in her room and both doors were open. Her girlfriend got up, closed the door and then not too long after, all I could hear was Devon moaning. Gross! So I called my mom and had her pick me up.

That night I talked to Devan about it because it was still bothering me. So when Devon gets out of work, Devan confronts her about it and she lies right to our faces, basically calling me the liar. Now, I know what I heard, so I was pissed. So was Devan, so he stopped talking to her all the time. They would occasionally talk, but not a lot. So her excuse for leaving suddenly without a word, was to save her friendship with Devan and I. Thats bullshit - she just ruined the friendship right there. I wonder how long she was planning it and didn’t tell us about it. She really just needs to grow up and stop running away from all of her problems. Thats what she did that day, she just fucking ran away. I even ran outside so I could give her a nice punch in the face, but of course, she left.

The worst thing about it is that she moved in with Devan’s friend. So now, we don’t go over there. Also, about a week later she had came by to pick the rest of her shit up. I called her up because she was being very rude and ignoring us completely. All we wanted was for her to get her shit out and to give the key back. So she asks me about her cups she had there and asked me if I would wash all the dirty ones for her. Yeah, right! So I just gave them back dirty. I also broke her fan when I was pissed off that day. So, as she was leaving, she smashed the cups all over the ground in front of the door and left the fan out in the parking lot. Who does that? I still would love to give her a piece of my mind, because she hasn’t heard even half of what I think about what she did to us. I just want to scream in her face, or just send her a nice long message about how she needs to grow up and deal with her problems differently.

I’m just so sick of the drama. On friday more shit happened with Devan’s brother, and I ended up slapping him because of the lies he was telling me, right after telling me something else. I just don’t want to deal with it anymore, it’s taking so much out of me. I’m also thinking about deleting my myspace. Everytime I’m on I always go to the people’s myspaces that I don’t like. I don’t know why I do it, I always have. The wife of Devan’s old friend (the one that Devon moved in with) calls herself Paris, which I think is totally stupid. Paris Hilton? Must be. But, anyways, she makes these stupid blogs on myspace about her Porn “production” of the Breakfast Club, because she thinks all porns are boring and suck. She’s also getting her cast and what-not off of her myspace friends list. Who does that? I mean, seriously. Am I the only person who feels this way? It’s the most stupid idea I’ve ever heard of. She’s a nice person sometimes, but she so self-centered and talks so much, and even talks over you when you’re speaking. I’m kinda glad Devon moved in there. Now we don’t have to deal with either of them.

Just, lately things have sucked so bad. I’m so sick of making friends and then losing them because they’re not who I thought they were. It’s tiring and a waste of time. But I’m glad I have Devan, we’ve been together for 8 months so far. We both are planning to stay this way for as long as possible. I know for a fact that he is the man I want to be with for the rest of my life. He is one of the only reasons why I’m alive right now, and he’s my other half. We spend every day we can with each other and I couldn’t imagine my life without him.

Posted on March 2, 2008 | Drama, Life, Boyfriend | 0 comments »

"new year, new problems"

Hey, I’m back. Here’s a little recap on what has happened since my last post:

- christmas eve was also my boyfriend and i’s 6 month anniversary, so I spent the whole day with him. Come night time my sister calls me up asking for one of my friend’s (the one’s with the pit bulls) address/phone number. She causes all this drama about it, but I don’t give it to her. Then she gets mad and hangs up on me. About 15 minutes later, she calls back all “when are you coming home? you’re always with devan and never with me,” blah blah blah…
- christmas day was good, I also spent some of it when devan and his family. Then for gifts I got a computer cord, a cable box, angel box set and some money to spend. Yay!
- the day before new years eve, my sister and one of the people she lives with was causing more shit with everyone.
- new years eve was supposed to be fun, we were supposed to drink and stay up late, but i ended up going home and everyone ended up going to sleep early. It was still fun, though.
- yesterday devon finally moved in with devan (haha, confusing!) her car also took a shit yesterday so she had to look for a rental car, but she has to find another way to get a car. But at least now she has a better place to live than with her parents.

Despite all the drama, this year has been okay so far. I just need to get back on track with this site again.
Speaking of the Angel (30 disc) box set… I’m watching it right now. I’m at Season 3 Episode 4. I’ve really gotten into Angel, and I’m so glad Devan got me this for christmas. It was on sale for only $70 at amazon.com. Devan is so sweet. Also, a few weeks ago I went to a new store called blue moon market, and got essential oils to drip on a light bulb and also some essential oil spray which is lavender. They’re all 100% pure essential oils, so they smell great. A friend of mine told me that you can buy them in bulk packages online for less, because one dinky bottle doesn’t last long and is a little over $10, which is too much for me to spend.

I put some songs on my iPod, but i haven’t filled it up even half way yet. I also got some cute new headphones with rhinestones on them. With my money from christmas, I got ‘nancy drew - legend of the crystal skull’ and some cute stuff from Charlotte Russe.
Well, I’m going to get back to Angel. I’ll post sometime soon and try to update the content section as much as I can. Cya!

Posted on January 10, 2008 | Drama, Holidays, Life, Shopping, Boyfriend | 2 comments »

"Merry Christmas!"

Hey everyone, sorry I haven’t been updating recently, I haven’t really had any chances to get on my computer because the cord to my laptop is broken and it’s taking forever to get it fixed. Right now I’m using my sister’s cord to charge my computer. So… What’s new? I’m actually not going to school anymore, my mom is home-schooling me. It’s not going all too well right now, but we were also thinking about taking classes online. That would be ten times easier for both of us. I just need to get a cord first!

Though I miss my computer, I think it was a good thing for me to get off of it and actually have a life. I’ve been hanging out a lot with Devon. I met her through Devan, my boyfriend, and we’ve been hanging out a lot together. She’s also 21, so it’s a lot easier to get along with her because she’s older. Also, tomorrow would be Devan and I’s 6 month anniversary! It feels much much longer, but in a good way. Me and Devan are doing good, except when we piss each other off, ’cause then he just gets pissed at me. We practically live together ’cause I’m always at his house. I even put up a tree for him and some pretty christmas lights.

Speaking of christmas… I’m so excited! For christmas eve day I’m going to spend it with Devan, just me and him. Then on christmas day me, Devan and Devon are going to go to our other friends house and spend the day there with their puppies. They have 9 of the cutest pit bull puppies ever. The mum and dad of the puppies are awesome, too. I never really used to like pit bulls before, but I think you just have to get to know them and not be afraid because they’re really nice dogs.

I’ll  try to put up another post after christmas when I finally get my cord. Have a wonderful christmas everyone!!!

Posted on December 23, 2007 | Holidays, Life, Boyfriend, Animals | 1 comment »

"It’s been a while"

Hey, I’m back. Sorry I was gone for so long, it’s been a long, hard week this week. I’ve been having a tough time going to school, but now that it’s the weekend I can relax, yay. I get the weekend to myself because Devan is going up to the races until about 10am tomorrow morning. I’m glad I get to hang out with my mum. She’s still sleeping and it’s 11:13 in the morning! She must’ve been up all night She’s been doing that lately.

We’re almost ready to go into the dark room in photography. We took both quizzes and monday should be the first time for me and a few people. I’m so excited! I’m watching season 7 of Buffy. I’m probably going to finish the season today. I don’t know what I’d do after that. I’ll probably start watching it from the beginning. I haven’t done that in a while. I also finished that Nancy Drew game I said I got. It was pretty fun.

Alright, I’m off to shower and hopefully my mom will be awake by then. Thanks for all the comments on my last post!

Posted on September 15, 2007 | School | 2 comments »

"School is stupid!"

I started school last week, and now I am enjoying the end of my long weekend. I was very surprised at how well my first day went. I love all of my classes, except a few where I have to sit next to an old friend (It’s very awkward). My elective classes are Intro to Photography, Ceramics and Portfolio Design. I’m really excited for this year because a lot of my classes are fun and art-related. That means that I’ll be stuck with gym next year, but I’d rather do that anyways. It’s a lot easier for me to take gym when I’m the oldest. I fucking hate gym, I hate changing and getting sweaty in school. Yuck!

I just got a new Nancy Drew game last night when me and Devan went to walmart. I got the newest one (obviously) because it was the only one in the store, but it’s actually better then I thought it would be. It’s called: “The White Wolf of Icicle Creek,” it’s cool ’cause you get to cook. It was totally worth the $20 my mom gave me.

I now have my own room! My sister moved out a few weeks ago and I finally moved all my crap into the room. All I have to do now is organize all the shit so it’s clean. I’m excited ’cause I get my own room and my own TV and my own bathroom. Cool, huh?

Alright, I’m gonna get back to organizing. Thanks for all the comments on my other posts! I’ll try to do some updates this week if I get to it

Posted on September 3, 2007 | School, Life, Games | 13 comments »

"Just woke up"

Waking up early sucks. My mom was making tons of noise this morning getting ready for work. And tomorrow I get to get up early for school. I’m so not ready for school to start, summer school really fucking sucks. Never get yourself in summer school, ever. But, hey, I passed english because of it. I got a 95%!

My cats have been sleeping in the weirdest places lately. The other day my mom saw Oscar sleeping in the bathtub, and now he’s sleeping above the toilet where we have towels. My cat Eisley sleeps on the dryer and my mom saw her sleeping in the sink the other day. I have the weirdest, but best cats. Speaking of cute kitties, Devan’s cat Phoenix has gotten a little bigger. When we first got him he was all bony and now he’s got a little fat on him and it looks so cute. He’s also finally learned how to play, so that’s all he does is run around and act crazy. I love kittens.

My parents finally got a divorce the other day. I didn’t want them to, but it just had to happen. My dad lives in another town, so why should they stay together still? I hope one day they can get back together after my dad sobers up, and I’m not exactly sure when that will be. Who wants to drink anyways? It makes you get sick.

Posted on August 28, 2007 | School, Life, Animals | 3 comments »

"Happy 2 months"

As of today, my boyfriend and I have been going out for two months. It’s not that long, but it feels like we’ve been together longer. The sucky thing about today is that Devan’s at Projekt Revolution all day long. But, at least I can hang with my mum. Since it’s friday we can stay up late and watch movies or talk… and maybe get pizza. Great, now I’m thinking about pizza. I’m so hungry! All I’ve had to eat today was a snack wrap from mcdonalds. I need to stop eating that shit.

So, you like the new layout? I love love love it. It took a lot of mess-ups and different images and stuff. I finally got it perfect, I’m so happy. Next thing on my to-do list: Content! Lots and lots of it, too. I’m not too excited to make all the pages for my avatars, there’s a lot of them and I have to redo them from when they were from Hopeless. I also have to redo most of my psds and I don’t even really have a program to do that on, unless you can do that shit in ImageReady. I doubt it. Man, I hate being poor. Anyone want to donate $300 so I can get Photoshop?? Anyone?

Last weekend I was pretty darn successful going school shopping. I spent a little over $100 between Charlotte Russe and Urban Behavior. I got the cutest little flats ever, they’re brown with blue, purple and yellow hearts on them. They give me blisters, though.

I almost feel like an only child now that my sister and Mark moved out. I went to see their place yesterday, it’s pretty decent. I’m kinda happy because I get her room so I don’t have to share one with my mum anymore, but I don’t know if I want her to move out so soon. It’s just too weird.

Posted on August 24, 2007 | Life, Website, Shopping, Boyfriend | 1 comment »

"Starting over… again"

This site has been bugging me for weeks! I’m working on a new layout, I’m just not sure what it’s going to be like. Tons of stuff need fixing. But, whatev, I just need to make a header and change around fonts/colors and I’m good.

The past few days have sucked. Yesterday I was hung over all day long. Thats what I get for drinking vodka on an empty stomach! I swear, I’m never drinking that shit again. (Yeah, right.) But I’m feeling tons better today, it’s just hard to eat without feeling a little sick. Man, I don’t think I’ll be drinking anything anytime soon.

Posted on August 23, 2007 | Life, Website | 0 comments »